FINALLY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, well, well....So its 'The Chipmunk Adventure'....
Ah Mei ahh, i meant this cartoon...i'm sure you can remember this!!!!
This is the cartoon i've been finding throughout my Deepavali Hols. I search the whole You Tube and finally found it. Haha. I remember my dad used to record many cartoon for us to watch, as though am back to the past....hahaha...

There was a patient during my clinical posting first diagnosed with ' ? subarachoid hemorrhage' which means ? bleeding in the brain. She was only 37 years old and pregnant 4 months. She was so weak until she cannot stand, walk or even care for herself. Her vision is also disturbed. Then later diagnosed as 'optic neuritis and meningitis' - means inflammation of the optic nerve and brain. We including the doctor thought that she is able to get well again. But, too bad we did a blood test and found out she is a HIV + patient. Everyone's heart sank. In the same time, we were worried too, including me. I cannot recall whether i have contacted any of her blood or body fluid. Sigh...

Last week, her husband suddenly informed us that she has stop breathing. One of the staff nurse checked on her, and no pulse is felt at the neck, and she is not breathing. The situation become more hectic. I was just standing and observing the scene, i really do not know what i can do to help the patient. Later another nurse push in the defibrillator, emergency trolley and suction machine in the room. I just followed them in. The only thing i can do is just help to prepare the equipments and drug required to revive the patient. Then, an experience staff nurse from ICU and medical officer came to assist us. The doctor said the patient need to be intubated. My and friend and i given the chance to do CPR and staff nurse bagged the patient. I tried my best to do the CPR. The patient did not make it even given adrenaline to revive the patient. Her baby went with her as well. The situation became solemn, quiet and sad esp when the doctor explain to the patient's relatives.

Honestly, I do not feel anything. I saw some of the staff actually cried even my senior cried. But, i do not know why i don't feel a thing, i do not know is it because i've seen too much death and i've seen too much suffering. Or maybe, nursing made me less human. I don't feel anything even when i cleaned the body. Sigh...

Am i a terrible person?......

My Testimony

God had been merciful for the pass few months. I've received many blessings and miracles.

~ I manage to get highest distinction for case presentation in class.

~ I got a very good pointer for semester 4.

~ God healed me from my sickness on wednesday.
That morning, i woke up having nausea and dizziness. I feel like vomiting as well but nothing came out. I was so sick until i have to go to the government clinic. Waited for 2 hours and was pissed off at the medical officer because of prescribing medication that was not relevant to my case. Reach hostel, i rest after bathing, but i'm unable to sleep. My head was so heavy, so dizzy, so weak and unable to eat. I decided to get up and pray about 12 in the night. Thank God that He able to give me rest and am healed the next day.

~ There was a bus accident last Monday. The college bus caught on fire and burned. There are some victims, which are my seniors. I heard that some of them was admitted in the hospital. One was transfered to ICU, i heard her face, hands was terribly burned. I'm grateful that God protect us from this disaster. If it is not because senior have not finish their class early, we (my group) might be the victim.

I do hope that God's presence will always be there for me. Thank You Lord for all the achievements, you have gave me confidence to move on. I believe that i can do a better job this semester. Continue to help me and be there for me, Lord.

Words to keep your HOPES UP

Commit to the Lord whatever you do,

and your plans will succeed.

In his heart a man plans his course,

but the Lord determines his steps.

Many are the plans in a man's heart,

but it is the Lord's purpose that prevails.

May He give you the desire of your heart,

and make all your plans succeed.

We will shout for joy when you are victorious.

Proverbs 16 : 3,9 19 : 21, Pslam 20 : 4 -5

Moments in Seremban Specialist Hospital

There are tough times during my training in SSH but there are also precious moments that i cherish. And yeah, i really put on weight here..haha..i'll try my best to get rid those FATS again!!!
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The seniors (group 33/sem4)

with group 37

group 33 and JB 1 after presentation

group 33 with Sister Fazira and Madam Doris

group pic (group 33/group 36 / JB 1)

with Dr. Yeap, orthopaedic surgeon

and Dr. Wan, orthopaedic Surgeon

us with Kak Juliza, clinic nurse

with Kak Ila

with Kak Liza

with Kak Fan

Group 33/JB 1

with Kak Aida

with Kak Diana, Kak Malathi

with En. Z (hahaha, he was ReAlLy sleeping)

us at SSH's Peads ward (the ward is beautiful)

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. Group 33 with Sister Fazira

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me n my fav junior, Azlin

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Bringing friends to Lake Garden n Parkson

us at Jusco

This was not the best training but i felt happy with friends, juniors and staffs. Overall, it was great working in Seremban Specialist Hospital.

It Is FINISHED!!!!

After 2 months of suffering completing my case presentation for sem 4, i finally presentated it and have a really good feedback.

to make things short, I got DISTINCTION!!! hahaha...it is definitely what i wanted. I really thank God for His grace and mercy and kindness. I really appreciate the success He gave me. It really strengthen me and made me to look tall and take pride in all things i do. This success is really a great encouragement to me!!!

Thx for those to prayed for me!!!

AM SO HAPPY!!!!!!!! =)

my BOOK

This is my book presentation which took about 2 months to complete it. And, am satisfied with the outcome. It looked simple but not so 'simple' inside...haha...

so thick...haha

AM EXHAUSTED!!

I was super duper busy with the preparation of my case presentation this month. And finally, IT IS FINISHED. Actually, not really la, i have not print out my book presentation yet and am waiting on Saturday, my patient's follow up day, write some report on it, den print den no more case study!!

My power point presentation have a total of 184 slides. Sigh...dunno how to present it in just 20 minutes. My book presentation is really my masterpiece, haha, as though i've just publish a book. It is so soooo thick. About 152 pages, not including my patient's documents, i think can reach up to 200 pages. If wanna include the front page and subtitle pages, really cannot imagine how thick it'll become. Now, i have to keep it safe in a big file so it won't get dirty or fly away. haha, when it is done, i'll put up some pictures of my book...

After many disappointments, i really hope i'll score well in this case presentation. I do not want my efforts go to waste. Even if i can't achieve other 'things' that i really hoped for now, but i just wish that God will grant me a good result for this presentation. Pray that i'll have the courage to speak in front of people, and that God will grant me the wisdom to know what i need to say.

Life in the hospital was also super tiring. Sigh, i can't wait for my last day. coz, AM REALLY EXHAUSTED!!!!!!

Busy

I found a patient for my case study. She is diagnosed with colon cancer, just undergo a sigmoidectomy - hemicolectomy yesterday. I was together with her during the operation. It took about 3 -4 hours. The operation was succesful and i'm able to see how a tumor looks like. Standing for 4 hours really hurts. The operation theater was extremely cold as well, got a headache afterwards.

Now that i found my patient for case study, i really don't know where to start. Too many things to do in a short period of time. My mind is all over the place. Sigh, hope i can do my case study well.

Taken from "God's Little Devotional Book"

WHEN GOD MEASURES A MAN, HE PUTS THE TAPE AROUND THE HEART INSTEAD OF THE HEAD.

...the Lord sees not as man sees, man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart. 1 Samuel 16 : 7

President Lincoln had a disarming and engaging ability to laugh at himself, especially his own physical appearance. When Senator Stephan A. Douglas once called him a 'two-faced man', Lincoln responded, 'I leave it to my audience. If I had another face, do you think I would wear this one?'
Another time he told a group of editors about meeting a women riding on horseback in the wood. She 'looked at me intently, and said,"I do believe you are the ugliest man I ever saw." Said I,"Madam, you are probably right, but i can't help it." "No," said she, "you can't help it, but you might stay at home."
Although his likeness is widely recognised, Lincoln is not known primarily for his appearance, but for his courageous stance for restoration of the Union and the ability of slavery. He is often held up as an example of remarkable patience, determination, dedication, strong will, compassion, thoughtfulness and selflessness. These inner qualities are what mark Lincoln as one of America's greatest presidents.
So much is made in our culture today of outward appearance and material possessions. We do well to remember that it is our virtuous inner qualities that create a lasting reputation.